For what?
BIS & HGC era passed quickly. Then NWT came, also the single live. And MSc just started. Same question in the past - "What are we fighting for?" It's simple; it's for the future. For two people seeing the same future. Not to have a mate only. Time is running out and now we're not in the same route . Just the time file, no one's fault.
One day, Eddie asked me that what is my motivation. Same question today, I've no idea. For self? For the future? Better live? What's the definition of better? Fame and gain are always unimportant for me. Looking back, I was never good at accommodating. Sometimes, the names and numbers are appearing before my eyes. 1212, 505, 3308, 87D, CX880, Rosebarry Garden, New Milford... so much. The song by Celine Dion, I remember.
To look ahead, SME is in the range, MSc target locked. Behind all the personal achievements, I need someone to share with me. Who's the next spade? Who can share with me in distress and joy? I look forward to it patiently. It's the only way.
When I decided to take MSc, I understand the only easy day was yesterday. High return with high cost, it's fair. It's just the beginning, but made me feel tired already. V-Power is needed, but it's out of stock.
What do I still have? Family, Friends, Stable environment for studying, Fair pay, Good boss, ES300, G36C, MP5-J… so many. All above this, I treasure to have Edmond & Elyse, my confidant.
--------------
I'm fine, don't worry. Have some silly thought only.
After this weary journey, I'll be Super Sunny.